Have you ever followed God exactly where you thought He was leading — and ended up somewhere you never expected?
Not lost. Not faithless. Just confused. Standing in a place you can't make sense of, holding a faith you're not ready to let go of, but also not sure what to do with right now.
That's I DON'T ALWAYS LIKE HIS PLAYS. And Hillary Scott names it with a kind of honesty that doesn't get sung in church very often.
"I'm so confused. I know I heard You loud and clear. So I followed through. Somehow I ended up here."
That's not a confession of failure. That's the truest prayer a lot of us have ever prayed.
"I know You're good, but this don't feel good right now."
Both things are true at once. He's good. This doesn't feel good. And the song doesn't try to resolve the tension between them — it just sits there, on its knees, with the only four words left to say.
"Thy will be done."
Not because the feeling has caught up to the theology. Because sometimes that's all you've got, and it's enough.
This is the wrestling position. It's not optional on the way to the mountain. You don't skip it. You pray through it.
When was the last time you were honest enough to pray those four words and mean them — even when you didn't like what they might mean?
